|Oh, I've been so sick the last few days. I seemed to have caught a flu bug that was going around. Which is kind of funny since I did get the shot jut a week before. Thinking back I've gotten the flu every winter, sometimes two or more times each winter. And I've always had my flu vaccine. Guess it doesn't work as promised, huh?|
Bear and Bull are bouncing off the walls. There is a fresh blanket of snow outside and more falling down. They are desperate to go throw some snowballs and make a snowman. Now that my head doesn't feel like a balloon and I'm not falling down sick anymore I'm tempted to take them. Yet I cannot find their gloves anywhere! Winter coats, hats, and scarvs are all in the box where they should be. The gloves seem to have walked away though. I don't want to have to make a special trip to the store just for a couple pair of gloves.
I guess I could put socks on their hands. I remember doing that as a little girl whenever i lost my gloves or if they were too soaked to keep wearing. Though I always had some warm woll socks to use and neither boy has a pair like that. Maybe I will make that trip to the store afterall. I can't just let their hands freeze!
|I swear my kids are the worst ever at going to bed.|
Every night I give them a warm bath, get them into warm pj's, get them a small snack, read a few dozen stories, cover them up in their bed, and pinkie swear a billion times that there are no monsters in the house. And still I'll hear "MOM!" every 5 minutes for the next hour. What do I have to do to get them in bed and asleep before 10 PM?
Since I work from home I try to do most of my work after they're in bed. That way they get my attention all day, except for the few minutes I steal for myself here and there. Maybe it's single mom guilt. They don't have 2 full time parents so I'm trying to be double the parent myself. If only there was a way to get their father to be with them more. Compared to other single moms I know he's already pulling his weight a few thousand times more than most dads, but it still doesn't feel like enough. If he could take them for an hour or two every afternoon or evening that would be wonderfully amazing.
A girl can dream.
I'm really trying to get into this blogging stuff. I never was the type to keep a journal or diary, so suddenly having one so open and online is a bit confusing.
Anyway, earlier I was looking around at some other blogs and reading some when I came across this post. Six Types of Date You Will Encounter While Single I read it about three time, chuckling along the way. I can see so many of my ex boyfriends in this list. I'm tempted to put the X-factor in the first category. Not because he was so horrible, in fact before we had kids we were pretty much perfect for each other. But after our first son came it was clear we weren't clicking anymore. I was in my new role as a mother, he was refusing to add any more responsibility to his life than he had before kids. I used to say I was a single mother long before he left.
But this isn't about him, it's about my new boytoy Loverman. He's probably a #3. Independent, not tied down, not trying to go any further than it is. I'm not sure if that means there's any future, but for right now it's perfect. He was actually a friend of the X, that's how we met. It feels a bit shady admitting that. There were a few sparks and I did have a secret crush on him, but we were adult enough not to take it anywhere.
It was probably about 3 months after the X and I split. Loverman had just been dumped by his long term girlfriend, a woman he had been planning to propose to. So we were friends hlping each other through our mutual relationship woes. There was nothinggoing on, not friends with benefits or anything of the sort. Just someone who would sit on the couch and eat pizza with me late at night and understood why sappy commercials made me cry. My kids already knew him and were comfortable with him, though he didn't often come over when they were up. One night, out of no where he leaned over and kissed me. I mean kissed me. After that he started coming ovr more often, obviously wooing me. I stayed a bit distant at first, I was so nervous and scared! But he began to grow on me, and somehow the relationship evolved into waht it is today.
Of course the X hates it! He feels that friends should never get involved with their friend's exes. I say if the spark is there go for it.